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Following
Jun. 10th, 2007 | 12:54 am
We go our seperate ways
Follow separate paths
Bathe in ones weaknesses
And play with ones heart
In true blood I don not follow
In truth I do lead, lead by a part of me that is foreign to all
The soul that makes choices
A conscience that creates paths
The determination is our drive
Though following and leading may entitle one to success
Which gives us a sense of honor and respect?
Though the path we choose to follow is our own
Take the way that is best for heart, conscience and soul
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Impressions
Apr. 20th, 2007 | 05:36 pm
The impressions you leave
Makes me posses a sensation beyond belief
An it is both love and grief
Combined as one that has left me breathless
I feel your presence as it were an escape
Something I know is not fake
Though I still feel that fright and also that sense of delight
How shall I know what is true
When my own sensation and beliefs
Have deceived in both you and me
I know you are true and sincere
But why do my sensations take over and only show me fear
I know you’re the only true one to take my breath away
But you affection shoes a desire beyond lust and fear
And that’s why I keep a distance and can’t hold you near
Make my emotions see
That I shall only be whole
When you are close by with me
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Losing Faith
Apr. 18th, 2007 | 09:22 pm
Turning on my faith
Crying through the winter
Losing everything caused me so much pain
I know that you would be
I thought that I was yours
But I guess faith deceived me
I just wanna breakdown
And let you see
The affect you had on me
It was something hear and beyond
It was a bond beyond strong
The things that made me whole have run
And ended anything that I ever thought fun
My hope, my dreams and you
How shall I ever get through
When faith disappears
I guess we follow too
We drift away
On that path with a sway
My ruffled hair no longer shines in the suns rays
My fight with despair is over
For I know life is no longer fair
And that’s the loss of my faith
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Poem
Apr. 13th, 2007 | 07:11 pm
mood: 
contemplative
I resent to open my eyes
For the fear of life is no longer a delight
I wish to fall from this earth to the cores of hell
So I shall never feel that wisdom
If I see the light
It reminds me too much of that never ending fight
The one were I don’t see, the one were its hidden from me
The pain only spreads
An my heart bubbles with pain
As the thoughts of that life take that extra gain
I ask nothing but to be placed
In an area away from this earth
So I can open my eyes and let them linger away
Without worrying about the fright
Why can’t I make my eyes open?
Make them understand that the hurt shall be no more
Since the reason they are is gone
It has taken my memory, my thoughts, and my soul
What more could this take
I feel surrounded by the evils of a flood
And struggle to keep my head slightly above
Never would I have thought this true
This feeling of not belonging
To be anything more then a lie
I thought I would always be able to roam and fly
I was wrong to think, that this could ever be
The way that my eternity shall be
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Apr. 10th, 2007 | 07:23 pm
mood: 
content
I see the past
Shoot by and not a light insight
Only that beautiful smirk
And the feelings of delight
The thoughts of your presence linger inside
The way that your lips brushed over mine
Oh how the feeling was beyond divine
Though my only ever thoughts were to make sure you were alive and fine
How I miss the old times
Were I would hold you
And you would shudder and say you were cold
And I would tighten my hold
To ensure that warmth
That hold that made our bond strong
I knew I would never go wrong
Because our love was beyond anything I’d ever seen
I knew it would be long
I know people say you’re gone
But in my heart your presence is strong
Your always hear to show me what’s right and wrong
Your soul has disappeared but your presence is close and near
And living without your compassion, an trust
Makes my heart shudder and want to disappear
Though thoughts of you keep me sane
And the good times and those boring old games
Those made us laugh because we always knew
From the moment I met you it would always be
Me and you as one, till death do us part
But losing you was the hardest part
Though you made me promise never to depart
You made me vow and swear an oath
And when time took over my growth
We would be together, because forever never ends
Forever love would never bend
And my heart well finally mend
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Poem:When there finally gone
Apr. 9th, 2007 | 01:47 pm
mood: 
envious
I finally put my head down to sleep
An I realise my heart is not at ease
Your head on the bed is something I shall never see
Cause your cruel fate deceived me
You were my everything
My soul, my heart, my strength
And when you left I was torn
Away from this world I wonder what it is you do
While my heart aches for you
And as I know I shan’t see you and me grow old
It makes my soul bitter cold
When I go through the photos and the memories
I shiver in that moment of delight
An I remember that it was only a thought that brought me such pleasure
Though as they fade I try and sleep
But all I hear is that beep
That time that neared to quick
It was almost like a blink
And your time with me was taken
And there you were gone from me and all I have is that bitter memory
So as I sleep I see that face before that last breath intake
What shall I do?
When I gave you everything of me
In order to set my soul free
Though time is quickening and soon I hope to be near you just to be set free
And regain my soul, heart, and strength
And mainly my love for you
Oh how wonderful it will be
But that was only a thought
I can only hope and pray that there shall be such a day
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Betrayal of the heart
Mar. 3rd, 2007 | 04:29 pm
All I remember is that your were smiling
Your rosemary cheeks were glowing
An your heart was flowing
I don’t understand their was only the joyous times
I never thought you would
I never pictured it
You out of all to leave
You out of all deceive in me
For you said I set you free
Why did I not believe when I heard
Why did you let me see
That you were with
Someone other then me indeed
You only ever eased my pain
Now I feel an unbearable strain
For why would you say an not do
Why did you make my heart love you
This pain you have caused is too much to bare
Tell me why you were my angel
If you didn’t love and care
You out of all to betray
Makes me want to go under and just lay
Lay somewhere away from this cruelty
Somewhere were loyalty is something out and beyond
Tell me how I shall ever be strong
When all I witness is wrong
For I was never to rough nor tough
For wasn’t I doing enough
Your heartbeat was only even
Your face so strait
That I couldn’t detect
Not one single trace of this phase
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Love Poem
Feb. 3rd, 2007 | 04:21 pm
mood: 
creative
The feelings I bestow
Is something my heart just won’t let go
Your views are so true
Then why does my heart deceive you
Why are the tragedies of ones lives
Our cries
In your sore beautiful eyes
Shall I never see that day
Were I shall look you in the eyes an say
I want to stay
In this perfect view in which your eyes portray
The tears of sorrow grow
And the tears of tomorrow flow
Shall I never be set free
Being distant from you leaves me with worries
When shall my heart be put at ease
Well I ever see those eyes again
I stay up through the night
An remember the days
Of how we used to fly through the breeze
An play hide and seek between those green hollow trees
Your beauty was like nothing else
It wasn’t for a glare
It was something more
Like love and care
You never had to speak
Because the views of your eyes were oblique
I don’t need the words
All I need is that view
An to express my love for you
I try to forget about those days
And those old ways
But all I do is remember
That look and oh how it was tender
An I love you always and forever
And in my heart we shall always be together
You are like the wind
That I feel
But can not hold, tell me shall we ever grow old
Just for me to cuddle and hold
For im sorry for those days
When I let you down
For you were the one that deserved the crown
The symbol of life and love and beauty too
That’s all I can say to you
Know words shall describe these ways
An those humble warm summer days
And those cold winter nights when I would hold you
An those words, which I whispered and told you
Oh how I cherish our time that we spent
The feelings and emotions that have my life bent
For every moment that I spent
Is something I well never repent
An those eyes that created a dent
All for that view which felt so true
I would search the world
To see you once more
To hold those eyes
In that view
Just to say I love you
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holly black:Ironside
Dec. 12th, 2006 | 04:42 pm
mood: 
crazy
i just cant wait that means me waiting six months ill probably be dead but what can i do i have to wait i guess have know choice cry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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today was an ausume day
Dec. 1st, 2006 | 08:08 pm
I got the highest mark in my english debate and then we ended the day with a party that was just extra fun and cool especially since i was surrounded by amazing people thanks guys
